As I grew up, the tantrums lessened. I was able to hide my passions, my frustrations and disappointments within me. I was told that I was “easygoing and laid-back”. Little did people know that I had held it all in, and developed a problem with depression. One of my goals was to rediscover the passion that I had as a little girl. I didn’t even realize I had lost it until I started talking with Bob about my childhood. After the first session, I felt lighter and freer. Not much else of a difference. It was only a few days later that I truly felt energized. I become more engaged in my work and in my hobbies. After a rough couple of days at work, I realized that I was quite angry about some work situations. I felt like I had gone back to my childhood- wanting to pound my pillow and stomp my feet. Of course, I did this in the privacy of my bedroom and was quite appropriate about the whole thing. It was then that I realized that I had regained some of my passion. I got my passion back!

The second experience was also quite useful to me. In this session, we did extractions (or rather, Bob did). We uncovered another childhood memory, that of me being taunted by other kids on the bus, one boy in particular. I then recounted me coming home to my father, crying and feeling badly. At this session, all was going along fine. Then I felt a tremendous rush on my left side; a tingling sensation that started at my left breast and went down the whole left side of my arm. When I commented on it, Bob explained at that point that he was extracting a sword from that exact point! I could physically feel it.  Processing this session, Bob explained that perhaps at that moment in time, when I was ridiculed and humiliated on the bus, that maybe the sword was driven into my heart, causing me great pain. Again, I have felt lighter and freer since that session. And my temper, or I should say, “passion,” has come back to me. I am an adult now, and have to act appropriately. But I FEEL things again, like I did when I was a child. Sometimes I wonder if it was a good thing to ask for it back. Yet, I know that it is, because FEELING things, though sometimes painful, is part of the human experience. What a rush to be able to engage in and enjoy things more fully. I am now more present in this world.